This note is not only for myself, but for all my friends and family that have MS and other neurological diseases. The farther I go down this path with this disease, the more frustrating it gets in some ways. I so hope, this reaches at least one person. First of all, yes, most of the time we look just like the rest of the world...normal. For those of us who are blessed, we walk normal, talk normal, dress normal, and react normal just like the rest of the world. At times we may look a little tired, but who doesn't?
Truth is, we are NOT like the rest of the world. There are some crazy things going on inside of our body, that most can't understand, and to different degrees. On most days, I am in excruciating pain. On most days, I am so tired I can't hardly force myself to do just the basic things that need to be done in life. BUT I do, when I can. I'm not whining, if I say I'm tired...it simply means I'm exhausted. If I say I'm hurting, it means it feels like someone's literally trying to rip my body apart, inside out. I don't do things because I don't want to, I don't do things, because on some days I can't. Just like the rest of the people with this disease and others.
Guilt...big issue in our lives. We hate to say no I can't do it, because we don't want to let you down, and it also feels as if we are letting ourselves down. But you know what? We aren't looking for sympathy, sarcasm, and no we aren't making things up to get attention. I, personally, could think of a lot better ways to get attention LOL..some might not be considered legal hahahahaha.
Even tho we are different in so many ways, and have a hard time expressing that to others, there are a lot of ways we are just the same as you. We LOVE to laugh. We like to have fun. We love spending time with those we love. We are still the same people we always were, we are just limited, to some extent on some days.
One thing for sure, we need you now more than ever. Walking off for you might be easy, but it's one of the hardest things we face. Every day we get up and battle a disease as to which, we have no idea what is doing to us from one day to the next. So before you sit back and say what you would do in our shoes, let me say, you have no idea. Point I'm trying to make is this, we are people...we hurt...we love...we cry...we laugh..and most of alll..even tho some parts of our lives have had to change all of them do not.
For those of you we love, we love more. We realize now just how much we have in you. We appreciate the small things so much more, and the larger things, that are irreplaceable, we'd lay down and die for. We love you, we need you, and by alll means , try to understand. You make the difference in our lives everyday. For you heroes who have stuck by us and made us laugh when we didn't feel like even smiling, I admire you. For those of you who have walked out, I suggest you do some research and self searching within who you really are.
For all of you who have MS ....I love you and you are my family. Even tho we are different, I take pride in the different I am. MS has made me a far better person and you, my MS family, are some of the best people I've had the privilege to come to know. We just have to keep praying for a cure, and pushing for understanding.
Monday, August 2, 2010
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About Me
- Steve
- North Grafton, Massachusetts, United States
- Well-educated, disabled at this point with Multiple Sclerosis. I am very glad that I was able to do the things that I have been able to do over the years. had to change the picture, this one's more realistic.
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