This is something that I wrote quite a while ago. Hopefully this information is pertinent. YouBecause the illness is so weird and there is no way to tell when the onset occurs you do things just as you would normally and don’t think twice about participating because these are the normal things to do. In my mind, the only way to tell that the illness was affecting you is to look back, hindsight is 20/20. As I look back I see that certain things that occurred such as doubled vision and balance problems did occur in the past. When I was mowing the lawn I could not tell where the wheels made marks so I could mow the next area. If I were to run upstairs there were times when I would catch my right foot and trip. When skating there were times when I would catch my right foot and trip. Generally these things happened when I became exerted. These occurrences were signs that I may have something wrong, but even though you complained about these things to doctors, it was not found. For many years I felt that there was something in the background that was not good. Of all things that occurred, the worst was depression. It is very difficult to tell whether this is a symptom of multiple sclerosis or just something that is a stand-alone illness, anyway, it’s a very difficult thing to deal with, especially when you don’t know what you’re dealing with. When you’re dealing with a life-changing event there are different stages of emotional changes that you must go through. These would be acknowledgment ,acceptance, and adjustment. Of these the most difficult would be acceptance. I will go back in time and see if stress played a role in my demise. There are a few incidents I can think of that would be stressful in nature.
When sharing the above information it is always important to note that these events are shared by everyone around you. It becomes very difficult for them also. Tomorrow I think I will write about being self-conscious. Now it is time to find a picture:
Saturday, August 8, 2009
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About Me
- Steve
- North Grafton, Massachusetts, United States
- Well-educated, disabled at this point with Multiple Sclerosis. I am very glad that I was able to do the things that I have been able to do over the years. had to change the picture, this one's more realistic.
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